Emre

it's been two years...

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 06:13:55 GMT

Where to start?
Life has been a roller coaster. It's 6am, I'm helping a friend pack and it feels like I am back in Belgium: a good soundtrack, the sun is rising and we've been packing all night.
Those good memories never die for me.

I've been around UK and Europe a few times, enough to know better, enough to know I'll be fine.

I haven't updated this since the 18th of may 2006. Feels like a lifetime.
I still love my friends and my family.
Things are unraveling and I hope my old friend read this: Zaccharia broke up since last time, I feel like an old road dog already and I've seen too many things. I've lived life!

Hope you are all good if you read this, I love life and if I go away, I'll know I've loved all the people I love
(this is not a suicidal letter, fuck that!).

I'm working down at the underworld today, British Steel Festival. I haven't slept and it's gonna be a mission!

xoxo

holy shit, I'm still alive!

Thu, 18 May 2006 01:11:25 GMT

It's weird coming back here. I haven't updated this thing in ages. I usually use the myspace one since it's all in one place.
I should try to read everyone's LJ but haven't found the time to deal with the longer ones.

5 months have gone since the year started. What happened?

a) I worked my ass off for 60 days straight in the past 2 months. I am still alive and kicking!
b) I have no girlfriend, a single man's what I am. Sad but true. I guess it was meant to be.
c) I met some great people recently. We keep in contact and it makes me happy
d) I'm going to make my dream come true: make a living from music.
e) I haven't dated in 4 months, I feel like a looser all over again on that subject!
f) bullet points like these make so much more sense than rambling on. It keeps the attention of the reader
g) I want to buy dozens of guitars.
h) I need to go back to the gym. Home workout doesn't cut it anymore. Time to look like schwarzie!

Life could be worse. It could be better but all in all, I'm happy with what I have right now. I thank my parents dearly for their support in my choice of lifestyle. It's not easy to accept that your son isn't going to be the next rich guy or that he isn't going to be well off from scratch. My dreams don't include money, they include a woman, a family and notes being played day and night with instruments by people with real dreams...

I'm out. Peace.

3 months later...

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 17:21:54 GMT

It's been 3 months that I didn't have a proper internet connection in my house. 3 months of work, anger with the providers and changes.

I don't study anymore, I've graduated and I've got a pretty decent grade. Some of the nerdier people got a bit more than me but barely so I know I did a great job, especialy since I never dibbled with a lot of the material, unlike some.

Started working for the Underworld, the punk rock venue of Camden. A great place but they have so many things that aren't working properly but then, where on earth does a venue have everything working perfectly? I've seen quite a lot of shows due to that but they have been more stressful than anything. I'm feeling less and less interested by masses of punk/hardcore and metal by moments since I deal with it everyday but it's ok, it's just because it's the beggining and things go quite insane.
This work is taking a lot of my time, reducing my social life to little but it's ok, I don't care. It's bound to be weary and hard on me.

Yesterday I got my first payed job at the venue. Fucking awesome but it was a long day, well deserved one.

My new flat mates are so much younger than me: both 19, about to turn 20 next month. Talk about being the old man of the house! They make sure I keep sane and a bit insane, good to live with them.

I shaved my goatie off, so my whole "chin strap" looks more like giant sideburns. Pictures coming soon!!!!

What's everyone doing for christmas and new year? I'm going back to Brussels probably.

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 11:00:15 GMT

I'm going to brussels tonight. It feels like ages since I've been there. Tomorrow Zaccharia is playing.
If some of you don't read my other blog, here is WORD FOR WORD what I wrote because I feel too lazy writing some new story but don't worry, I love you all!

In the past 2 weeks I have:
a) finished school
b) celebrated the end of classes
c) appeared in a video (check out the new Fireapple Red video "Despite It All")
d) worked for the Underworld venue in London
e) Moved into my new place
f) Been deprived of my Internet
g) got a new kickass mic
h) had difficult and still unsure discussions about my lovelife.
i) decided I'm going back to Brussels for 10 days! (BELGIAN PEOPLE HELLO!!!)
j) haven't had a haircut yet (I've been meaning to cut my hair for the past 4 weeks)
k) earned 80 quid moving heavy duty music stuff for a so-so band (Gotthard)
l) partied some more and then some
m) met new people which makes London even more interesting...

That being said, a new life awaits me after the college life: I have to make it in the music world! Not easy, not impossible but surely not the most trivial thing to start earning money.

And also, I think once I come back, it's gonna be heavy job time because I am getting less rich by the day but I'll be fine.

end of days!

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 22:20:33 GMT

So it's going hell bent here!
I've got tons of things to finish, to hand in and polish up and I've got less than 16hrs to do so.
I'll have finished school in 2 days. Yeah, Audio Engineering classes will be over and I will have to face the music (HAR HAR!) then.
These past 6 weeks have been pure hell!

I've moved into my new flat. Well, not fully since I'm finishing my work at my brother's. I will finalize it all next week. The place looks sweet, large and modern.
Pictures will be posted soon.

I know just that Saturday and Sunday will be celebrations for end of this nightmare. These weeks have been so intense that I am ready for a bit of a break. Sunday night is Fireapple Red gig. I heard the two new songs and they sound awesome. It kind of sucks that the version I recorded for them wasn't really taken into account. They thought they were doing me a favour while I firmly believed that there would be some chances of actually releasing it. Nevermind, better luck next time. I'll make my recordings sound so much better next time!

I haven't heard from the lady in a week. It feels like I have to run after her...What the fuck, isn't it usualy a two way thing relationships?
Anyway, I'm going back at doing things in a deadline!

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 22:09:55 GMT

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Sun, 21 Aug 2005 01:11:11 GMT

well it's official, I gave my keys back to the estate agency. No more house for Emre...except a couch.
up at 8:30am and sorted out my place, made a double of my bro's keys, sent out some fx pedal and then had a lunch at the local turkish bakery. It always feels good to speak your native language, I miss it.

Saw some family guy and drank some chianti...at the same time, I got some sweet classic albums: best of uriah heep (2cd), alman brothers live at the filmore east, volcano I'm still Excited!!! (for old weezer fans!), the best of neil diamond and best of deep purple. AWESOMENESS!!!!! And for so cheap!

In other news, it's sunday tomorrow. Ladies and people, send some love because we all need a hug (that was cheesy!)

So long...

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 22:57:16 GMT

So it's been already a year since I moved to London. How do I know? Well because I just moved today from my flat. I'm officialy homeless. No house.
Well I am going to crash at my brother's place and tomorrow I still need to go pickup my last stuff from the flat but it feels weird. It's weird to believe It's already been a year since I moved to London, that I left Belgium, that I left a whole life behind to start anew.
By The Way, I moved all my stuff to a storage room and I realized I have SO MUCH STUFF!!!! It's ridiculous, I need to learn how to travel light seriously.
I feel tired, strained and pushed to the limit. I've got so much to do for school and at the same time, I have to start thinking of future prospects when I finish classes.
I wouldn't mind some female company tonight honestly. Just because it'd be a bit of difference from the regular daily lifestyle of working, studying, seeing your buddies.
Anyway, the new place I'm gonna move to in the end of September is awesome! I'll be expecting some of you there since it's beautiful and it's close to Camden!

I'm out. stay well, peace.

Emre

self destruction?

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 23:13:30 GMT

Second entry of the night, second part of my rant...

So I met tonight some random guy who was being nearly a prick. Yeah, I know he did it on purpose to get "attention" but what is the point of that? Why are you self destructive enough to bring negative attention? You want positive attention. Maybe I'm cranky, that's why.

In any case, I would like a hug from any of you ladies. That would totaly make my day...
I could use some positive female company tonight...but that's ok, I'll go to sleep soon.

<3 to all and death to the ones who want to annoy me on a cranky day.

Wtf Seriously!

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 20:18:52 GMT

This is such a weird day.
I hate this monday, it's the time to get back to work. After Japan, which was amazing, it's horrible.
I have loads of pictures I need to upload some.

Why is it shitty as well? Because some random guy got stabbed on a bus near my house. The guy got attacked by some fucking yob annoying people. He told him off and the guy stabbed him to death. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE? ANGER MANAGEMENT? No, a good beating old school style is what they need. Kicked in the teeth without any dental plan or any way to forget that what he did is LETHAL!
Those people piss me off, deserve to die in a box eaten by carnivore african ants!

I got to pay for the council tax, it's ridiculous how this council tax thing is such a ripoff. 116 quid!!! Which makes nearly 160 euros this month...and where does this money go to? Being unable of dealing with petty angry kids who stab people.

Also, I got loads of things to in the upcoming month. It's ridiculous, I hate craming up 1000 things:
a) record fire apple red for my project
b) finish my pro tools project for the end of this week.
c) pack my stuff
d) look for a new place
e) finish my two other projects

I can't believe that I will have to do my recording on the 3rd week of this month, just a few days before I must move just because my bloody school has decided that we should have 1 more exam on thursday 11th.

I hate the fact that we have 1000 projects at the same time that I need to move. I don't even know what's going on with one of my roomies, my friend Alberto. He's in the states and waiting for some news of some financial aid. I feel like it's gonna be ridiculously rushed. I fucking hate rushing things while I got recordings to do.

I am angry at the world and at the fact that in 2 months, I'll be back in the working world and I've got my folks giving me the creeps about my future...always going on nagging about how I should have stayed in the computer business and all. It's a real pain to be yourself sometimes.
I guess I'm having a bad day.
My only good news lie in the fact that I got a movie called the Ruttles taking the piss of Beatles (which I love dearly) but with style for nothing and I got some awesome shoes that I really wanted thanks to my brother who helped paying most of it.

In other news, I am off to get a beer because this day has been shitty...including the weather that really isn't anything like summer. WHERE THE FUCK IS THE SUN WHEN YOU NEED A GOOD DAY OF SOLAR REGENERATION!!!!????

Screw this guys, I'm off.
Today was not a good day to hear all those news all at once.

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 03:24:29 GMT

DAMMIT!
I passed out in the bus and ended up 30mins away from home. Had to take another bus back to Archway.
Tonight, Mastodon was great. They are super cool people. We hung out and talk a lot, and drank a lot.
I'm out.

PS: ladies, you make my world turn round and round. I love you for being a source of joy and inspiration. If you're a cunt offended by what I just said, please remove yourself from my list and never talk to me again.

Thank you <3333

it hit close to home this time...

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 04:14:00 GMT

This is what happened today. Only one of the few blasts that shook the capital...
Insane for sure. The death toll is kept at a low in the official statements but everyone knows that the number will rise above 100. I'd be surprised if it didn't.
The weird thing is that coming from Turkey, I've been subject to that ongoing fear of terrorism. Europe and America only discovers this recently but for me, that fear was always there in the 80's but we didn't care. You live, you are cautious when needed and then go on with life. It's up to the police and other authorities to make sure all is safe.
People might be scared of this but I think it's normal. I remember the numerous times we got criminal fires and explosions all over Turkey due to PKK. After that, you just go on and learn to live with it.

I think though that so far, London's done a terrific job.
The british coolness and stoicism prevails here.

Everyone I know is good so that's alright.
It's so weird because tonight, almost everyone was back to their habit and it's good because staying home and waiting like idiots is not gonna solve anything.

Same amount of people at the supermarket, same amount of people at the local pubs. It will be a subject of discussion but people will shrug it off generaly.
London has seen worse and will see worse for sure.

I've spent 6 hours at school doing crappy midi music. I hate it. Useless.
I'm gonna spend 12 hours tomorrow doing midi and more. 6pm-6am. It's gonna be nuts. I wanna sit down, go out and party one night. I doubt I'll be able to before a while :(
I am sick of this school stuff. Holiday time is being requested soon!

when I was 16....

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 01:30:40 GMT

I finished Vampire Masquerade: Bloodlines after 3 days of intense playing. I am like that, once I get into a game, I don't stop!

I went to see the boys of Fire Apple Red. FOR ALL YOU OUT THERE, CHECK THEM OUT! IF YOU DON'T, THEN YOU ARE LAME...Yeah you heard me, lame...I SAID IT!

The headlining band was Pennywise. This brought me back to when I was a youngling (for some of you, that's "the age") and saw Pennywise the first time, it's gonna be 10 years this year.
10 YEARS OF GOOD PUNK. Their performance was great but lacked the edge of the early days.

I'll always remember the day that I ended up on the stage of one of Belgium's biggest festival, singing Bro Hymn along with Pennywise in front of 5000 people. That moment was magic and the day I can do it again, then I can retire and live happily because I'll have done it!
I sang almost every words along, I might be nearly 26 but my classics, I still hold them close to my heart.

It just makes me sad because today, the crowd seems to go along well but lost its edge, Punk has become "safe" and that makes me sad: fuck all those safe punkers. Why do I say that? Because I've seen both sides...quite unenchanting to say the least...

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 01:00:56 GMT

Pink Floyd just simply Rocks. I will always wish I could go back in time to see them for the Dark Side of The Moon or Wish You Were Here tour. In any case, I am envious of whoever's dad/mum went to see them at their apogee.

In Other News, I got another exam. Bollocks!

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 22:22:23 GMT

I got tickets for the metal Hammer Golden Gods award!
Anthrax, Nightwish, Trivium and Bullets For My Valentine. This is high class VIP shiznit. Good times!

screw you

Fri, 13 May 2005 04:00:07 GMT

I hate the world. my dad's legacy, his leather jacket has been ripped by some fuck. I hope they die. I have not remorse for the ones who want me ill fate.

Screw them.

screw it all.

Heaven on a CD...

Mon, 09 May 2005 01:21:31 GMT

Tonight, I think I got close to the sound of heaven... I recorded the most beautiful sound for a 12 string guitar.
Fuck me, It was grand!

oh brother, how lucky you are...

Thu, 05 May 2005 00:18:53 GMT

Today was a long day. Good things, bad things but all in all it was positive.

I was woken up by some guys redoing the boardwalk in our street. Great, at 10am after going to bed at 5:30am... Great way to start the day.
Next stop, the Fire Apple Red's house. The latest stuff sounds good, they were already good, now it's getting a good metal vibe.
After hanging out and catching up with everyone, I finally decide to borrow a friend's car and hit the road to go to Luton to get the gift!

THIS IS THE GIFT

bad ass, eh?
We managed to get together and pay for it although I've got to make sure the rest of the people pay me tomorrow as I am uber-broke otherwise.
It took ages to get there but I got it.

So after much thought, I think I will start taking my little camera with me everywhere soon so I can take random pics everywhere (Jayme, you CAN'T SUE ME for copy!).

I went to the coolest cheap vegan/vegetarian indian restaurant I've ever seen. 3 pound, all you can eat! HEAVEN! Who wants to come with me?

Call me the next master engineer!

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 00:52:22 GMT

So it's been AGES since I've updated this thing.
I've been busy, very busy. I still am and probably still will be for a while.
What's on the menu for the upcoming weeks? Recordings, time spent on creating electronic music and then sorting out all I need for my trip.
Indeed, I am gonna travel to New Orleans for a few days, then take a ride to some random town in Florida and then fly out to Baltimore for 2 days.
The main reason is because my best friend Brandon is getting married. Pretty last minute but you know I have to be there...so IF ANYONE KNOWS ABOUT COOL PLACES TO GO IN NEW ORLEANS, LET ME KNOW!!!!!!!!!

So I've been recording people lately, I most likely still will do that because that's how it is: I've gotta record a whole lotta people for my projects. I love it though, I like seeing people develop their potential and being able to get great sounds out of random people.
I am learning so much lately.

I've seen a few gigs lately: Isis (fucking awesome), New Idea Society (side project of stephen brodsky, fucking cool as well) and then some bluesy band called Little Barrie...REALLY GOOD! I love that album (named We Are Little Barrie).

In other news, I don't know what I'm doing for my 2 weeks break. Japan, Turkey or Norway. That's the choice so far. I'd love to go to Japan but I fear it's gonna be a fortune to get there!

I don't know...

I said I wouldn't but I did it!

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 04:15:16 GMT

Fuck It I said I wouldn't update twice in the same day but I'll do it anyway!

Fill this out right now.
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. How close?
4. When and how did we meet or haven't we?
5. How have I affected you?
6. What do you think of me?
7. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
8. How long do you think we will be friends?
9. Would you hug me?
10. Physically, what stands out about me?
11. Emotionally, what stands out?
12. Do you wish I was cooler?
13. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
14. Am I loveable?
15. How long have you known me?
16. Describe me in one word.
17. What was your first impression?
18. Do you still think that way about me now?
19. What do you think my weakness is?
20. Do you think I'll get married?
21. What makes me happy?
22. What makes me sad?
23. What reminds you of me?
24. If you could give me anything what would it be?
25. How well do you know me?
26. When's the last time you saw me?
27. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
28. Do you think I could kill someone?
29. Are you going to put this on your Blog and see what I say about you?

choices...

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 04:01:43 GMT

Don't you hate when you want one thing and can't get it?
When life reserves you another way with things that the one you wished for?
I think I hate life's little games sometime.

Reflect upon yourself and take a step back

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 00:43:22 GMT

Yesterday night, I hung out with Marco. He's one of my oldest friend. We fell out because we grew apart for different reasons. I couldn't stand his habits, his little things that bothered me. I needed a break. I realize now that by taking a step now, it sorta alienated our friendship but it was bound to happen.
He achieved partly his dream of being a video game programmer, I went another way.
So yesterday, hanging out at his place, it felt like we were the two nerdy kids hanging out and playing all those games, talking about stuff like we used to. It felt good to remember friendships.

I had yesterday night a perfect speech about friendship but I couldn't log on so I totaly forgot it. Mainly due to the amount of rum we drank.
We played guitar, we jammed, we talked.
I look back upon my friendships ever since I moved to London. I know a lot of people want to hang out but true friends will take the step and help you honestly, without serious 2nd thinking. They/You won't like it maybe but it doesn't mean you won't do it.
In the end, It's hard to make real friends...but it's harder to keep your friends.

I sometime forget what being friends mean. We all do. We want a certain popularity or level of socializing with people. We don't get it, we discard people...when it isn't always necessary.

I hate how sometime my LJ looks like Dougie Howser, reflecting back on my days as world's great philosopher but somehow, I learn about myself.
I learn not to forget who are the people who are truly meaningful to me.

We loose our way but we will find it back if we're smart.

I can't stop listening to Pink Floyd, especialy to "Dark Side of The Moon". This Album is an ultimate masterpiece. Whoever ditches the Floyd really needs to analyze their music.

I had a belgian beer tonight. Felt good.

We played UNO today. I sucked so bad. Lousy card games!

I'm soon off to Turkey.

I got so wet outside that I thought I was gonna die, I met a cool hobo with whom I had a great discussion. good time!

EVERYONE:

SEND ME YOUR ADDRESSES FOR POSTCARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am cheesy like good old cheddar but it will be interesting.

Over and Out!

Emre

Death is futile when it comes in the form of a 25y/o fucker!

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 02:39:42 GMT

RIP Dimebag Darrell Abbott.
You were not my favorite guitarist but no master shredder deserves to die like that. The only consolation comes with the fact that you died with the best thing: a guitar in your hand.

This is fucked up.
I got a mi-sweet/mi-sour day.
Woke up with a call from Pinar, ALL THE WAY FROM AUSTRALIA! She's so amazing. Cute, so easy to talk to and friendly. I'm keeping her as a friend. I don't even want weiner issues to ever come between us when I meet her. She's too cool to even date I think.
Then the news of Dimebag. After that, council tax which is still a big blur: one section says I get tax exemption, one says I don't. We'll see.
I get to school, analogue tape editing is the subject. AWESOME! VINTAGE STUFF!
I spend close to 300 euros in the past few days. Anyway, I'm supposed to get a lot of money back soon. Something like 87 pound which absolutely rocks so hard!!!

I can't wait to go to Foyles before I leave to get some extra books on electronics, amp electronics and more nerdy stuff. Audio Engineering, music technology and such stuff rules. I love being a nerd about it, better than computers!

In other news: DRAGONFORCE, the power metal to the max! Love it!

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 02:49:54 GMT

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I've got a bit too much on my mind somehow. Probably due to the wine giving me a headache. I want to relax and not worry about anything. Can't wait for friday. I'll be out of town for the week-end.

gone is gone but nothing is leaving a bad trail behind...unless you're hitler

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 05:59:27 GMT

So it's almost 6am. I've been up for so long.
Let's rewind and look over the week-end.

Friday: party up. first part of the night was free drinks in a club called "Rex". Nice place and our friends played a gig. Covers of course but great stuff. The Daves from Fire Apple Red and Tom from Skirtbox. Tom's bass was totaly out of tune. haha. The place had a cinema in another room. This room is perfect make-out/drug room. I can't believe no one came up with such an idea elsewhere. It's brilliant to relax, have sex or get whacked.

Saturday: recovering at Alex's house. All day was spent doing NOTHING except watch movies. Great stuff. Got drunk somehow, I really wasn't planning that.

Sunday: lazy day playing Game boy Advanced.

Now, I look back upon things and there are certain people I haven't talked to in a while.
So, PEOPLE. I know you are all busy or are doing something else but It'd be great to hear from you again.

Ali, what happened? I never get any news from you anymore. Good thing that your friend opened his eyes.

So I'm pretty tired now, gonna go to sleep while listening to Led Zeppelin.
I want to buy guitar stuff randomly. Anyway, have a great week everyone!
Happy thanksgiving for those who celebrated that.
For the rest of us, keep up. No stop.